life is short part 2

i just watched this movie, "rachel getting married." (for those "tv on the radio" fans, tunde adebimpe is the man getting married to rachel). in this movie rachel's sister is like a stocked man-made lake. her fish are problems, and for the most part, she's made them herself. drug problems. emotional problems. attention problems. and during the course of the movie i feel torn between pity and hatred for her. she gets out of rehab days before rachel's wedding. rachel is a relatively normal bride, fretting about her dress, seating at the dinner, etc. & during these next few days rachel's sister seemingly attempts to ruin rachel's wedding. she will talk about her drug addiction at inappropriate times, she will be belligerent at other times, etc. there are a couple times before the main event when rachel gets upset at her sister. her sister "how dare you!"s to rachel, and often rachel is subdued or the subject is changed to avoid further ignition.

i feel for rachel. i really do. i wish i could jump in that movie and tell her sister to get over it. "stop acting like a child!" i would love to scream at her. but i can't. she's not real. and really - we all act like children sometimes.  mostly i want rachel to have a great wedding. i wish i could just erase her sister out the picture with a big fat pink eraser. don't you wish you could do that? erase people that hurt others for some unknown reasons?

for instance man from apt b in our house is one of these people. i don't know his name. i've never even talked to him, but i think he is one of those people willing to do anything to get ahead. he would be a line-budger at the grocery store. he parks his vehicle, whenever possible, in front of the sidewalk. and every time i attempt to get into our car i have to first maneuver around his element with apollo, a diaper bag, and what ever else im carrying (usually overlarge stuffed dog named doug & blanket). often i slip on the ice. and i want to curse at him and erase his car from the world. but i can't. it's a small thing, i know. im being a bit silly, but really - is it necessary?

so why do people do these things? why do people change the subject so it will revolve around themselves? why do people budge? why do people pull out in front of you when you are trying to cross the street, and why do people litter? why is convenience above consideration? I'm for self, but why are some willing to sacrifice others happiness for their own?